Bread is the enemy or is it, you nut?

     I want to say I have NOT been tested for a gluten allergy and that is why I am writing this. I know that being gluten-free it the big "fad" diet of the year and I also know the test to get see if I am gluten intolerant is not cheap, well the medical test is. I did a little test of my own to see if gluten did anything to me. I suggest if you think you have a gluten allergy you do this too.
    My test is going to take a little on the long side but effective. One stop eating foods with gluten. Two endure the headaches and depression for a bit. The next week see how you feel? Are you happier? Do you feel the same? If you feel the same go back to eating gluten and how do you feel? IF you feel like crap there you go that is what gluten does to you. That simple.
    I shall give you myself as an example. I have had gluten 5 times since limiting it and the results are always the same. I eat bread or a cookie and feel fine. The second day I start to feel anxiety and a bit of anger. The third day I get extremely angry and raging. Working becomes very hard. The forth day I am ready to run someone over and quit my job and scream and cry, that of course all happens only in my minds eye. On the fifth day day I am back to happy crazy me.
     I do not make my gluten free life be a thing either. It is a thing only for me. I just try to eat something else and if there is on other option I can not eat or have some bread and know what is going to happen. I have read drinking more water helps gluten get out of the system faster but I rarely drink water so I don't know. Good luck either way.

My Life list (part 2) work in progress

     I thought about my life list for a good 2 minutes yesterday. It was a hard day and I had to focus work. I have a few things though and I will add to this as I think of more things but let us do this thang.

Life List thus far

1. Go to England and Scotland and France
2. Have a story of mine published
3. Be able to work from home and be comfortable with money
4. Buy a house with woods in the backyard. 
5. Be a size 6 (I am so vain singing in my head)
6. Have a "normal" wedding. 
7. Hike in Forest park.
8. Learn Russian and be fluent 
9. Go to Turkey and so where my dad came from
10. Travel New England and see Salem, Boston, New York, The Capital and Jamestown.
11. Visit Ekaterine Palace and The Winter Palace and see a Russian Ballet.
12. Meet Evgenia Obraztsova
13. Meet Jennifer Lawerence 
14. Finally have a house warming
15. Be in a movie 
16. Record a song 
17. Go to an Irish Traveller wedding
18. Stay in a castle 
19. Stay in a haunted House, preferably in the South or Salem or England
20. Leave flowers on Anne Boleyn's grave and Elizabeth I
21.  Be able to get on en pointe for a bit 
22. See the Red woods
23. Change someone's life for the better

Those amazing people

      If you ask my step-father,  dad from here on, about a person most likely he will tell you exactly how they are related, it is a bit of a running joke between my mother and I. Met a person in Spain and dad is their cousin 20 generation back! Truly it is amazing how dad can talk to anyone at anytime and put them to ease but that is for another time. For me that is not quite the story. Throughout my short existence on this little blue rock I have had amazing people step in as replacements for people that I lack in my life and this has gone back to the previous generations in my family. Those people that are family not matter if there is a genetic link or not. This is not unique to my family either so many before us and so many after will take up the mantle that others have stepped away from or never took up to begin with. I just want to thank some of those people in my life.

     At the ripe old age of birth I came out a girl, not that I chose it but that is what happened I just never grew that little penis my birth father (not using this as a cold term it is JUST the best way to not confuse the story, from here on he will be called father) had been told I was cultivating. That day I met one person that I put above most of my relations, my uncle Jesse was my father's best friend in high school and a good friend to my mom. He knew that day that I would not be treated the same as if I was a boy and still he was there as an Uncle especially since my "biological" uncles were both very young at the time. As time went on Uncle Jesse became my dad's best friend in college. I got to be there for his wedding and grow up with his children. I am so lucky to have him and not to be over showed his wife is soooo amazing too. Aunt Wendy, who's birthday it is today, found out that I have a want to do gymnastics and helped encourage me and my parents to get me into a class. That want was short lived due to other reasons but even to this day she still tells me it is not that hard to get what I want do a little drive and determination. These two great people are so what the world needs!

    Dad

     2 years after that faithful day that I came into this funtastic world my mom met the man that I would one day call dad. They were both nerds that loved to act like dorks. From there on my dad was there to be the one to come to parent meetings, put up with me being a brat and a teenager. He has also helped encourage me to be the brightest and goofiest person I can be. He taught me to never let the world box me into a category I could and can be all I make of myself, even if right now it is just a college drop out working customer service at almost 30, ha.  If not for this man that took me as his own at 2 years old I would not be the awe inspiring person I am today. 

     Do you have anyone that is family that is not related? If some give them a thank you today and a shout out. If not for these people helping so many people would be worse for wear. Thank you all for come by see you later.  

Do you want to know and how would you feel knowing? (ADULT DISCUSSION)

     Last night, well super early this morning, my mind got to think and that is never a good sign after a LONG day. I happened to flip through the "premium" channels and find so of every young man's dream, if you grew up like me before the ease of the internet, and as I listened to Monica, name may be been changed to keep the innocent safe or it could be that I just don't remember the names as I was just passing through, talk to her dream boat and whatever set-up was used for this piece of "art," that is pretty tame compared to shows like The Tudors  or True Blood in the sex scene department and nudity, I thought two things that lead to many, first what do men think of women using them for their "private needs" and vice-verse and why is there such shaming around "private time"? Here are my thoughts.

 PRIVATE TIME

     For many years, like thousands, private time was not discussed just done in the privacy of the bath house or the farm house and it was not a thing for women at all. For men it was, of course, looked down on as it was a waste of perfectly good pre-baby and the world, and the church, could now have that especially in the times of 1 out of 8 children making it to adulthood, like that made up statistic? We  do now have that horrible reality under control but we still expect people to keep this private time well private. Now I am not asking the world to tell me when they have private time I am more talking about others disclosing their minds-eye during this time. 

    I know for many there is a bit more to it than moisten, massage repeat, but what is the more? Is there one person, a harem of people or just faceless bodies? Now even further what if a person told you that you were that minds-eye person? What would you say? How would you react? As a woman I only have one side to the story so in truth I want to know what you think so please note below, let us continue. I thought if a woman told a man that it would build his ego but it came to me down blanket statement.  

     Honestly, for me I am pretty sure that I would be flattered to a point. If I know you and I am not weirded out by you okay cool fine whatever, knowing is fine is it truly not a dying question as I am getting older. Now in my teens if a guy told me, on the D.L., do kids still say that?, and again not weirded out by him I would have silently cried huzzah I am not a leaper after all and worn a smile using that as my happy moment for most likely most if not all of my teen years. So men women are not dying to know BUT if you ask know her well enough to ask her thoughts on the subject and she says it is cool throw out the hypothetical what if someone told you that you were their in a way private time dream? See how she reactions and play accordingly. Never know may move to more than a dream *wink*

 

    I hope this finds someone that needs a smile, a laugh or a good thought, while having private time or not. Really though open your mind a little and remember we are all made to breed, yes we are the show dogs of higher thinking. If you are like me and not going to breed, no judging, but hey doesn't mean you can't enjoy the fun that comes with that part of the human anatomy.

Father... fathers.... dad... and all you men types MALE AWARENESS DAY!

I know that you will find hundreds if not millions notes about "fathers." This is going to sort of be one of those.

     Last month on mother's day I heard so many well wishes from people coming through my work. Today it is the young men on my work to get their well wishes. I spoke to one of my friends yesterday and we talked about that neither of had children and for the time being neither of us have children and it all got be to thinking.

     I have thought of the labels that we give people and how they are required to have a "day". Now, I know that we already have so many days celebrating anything for parents to a rodents but why do you have to have a child to get a happy father's day? In fact it should be changed to male awareness day, screw the feminists (I am a feminist people chill I will get to the point) views that it is sexist as we will change mother's day to female awareness day. On these days you thank all of the men or women in your life that have helped you in education, self growth, self understand and have just been awesome in your life!
 
     I read once "having a child does not make you a great person" to add to that VERY TRUE statement,  a great person is the one that mold a person into a well functioning contributor to the world. We that statement I want to thank all the men that helped me grow into a proud happy person that sees more than one side to a story and questions when I am not sure. My strength is my own BUT you all helped me find it thank you!

    Go thank a male in your life no matter if it is your father, brother, uncle, teacher, mentor or even the crazy guy that lives with you even though you get freaking crazy at times!

HAPPY MALE AWARENESS DAY!

Let's said this *****

Hello there! Whoa don't leave, yeah I am talking to you. Now, I know you are like so many other people that has no time to read one more blog but I promise you this will not be that normal beauty or weight loss blog, I already have two of each of those for you if you want. Those blogs are in truth not really where my heart this. I am putting my full heart behind this.
What makes this any different? I know you are longing to know. All of my other online endeavors are censored, I hold back. I seem to hold back that which makes my friends stand me and, dare I say at times, like me. This will be a non-censored blog about just any shit that comes into my mind.  Oh yes, I am going to cuss at times, really short of Kate Middleton what young woman does not cuss. No, no I am not going to cuss like a sailor but it way fall in here and there.
If you want to hear the fun, weird, sad and even shitty stories I am your girl! Here we GO!